How many times have I said to myself, “I wish I wouldn’t have said that. I wish I would have said this. I should try to call/visit more.”

Why does life have to be so hectic? Some days I feel like an octopus being pulled by all 8 legs in different directions. I hate that feeling because, inevitably someone is going to have their feelings hurt.

But regret, DEEP DARK regret…what would you regret not doing? I’ve had to think about this quite a while to figure out what mine would be. I was raised in church, saved as a teenager, and knew right from wrong. I messed up a lot in my teens, and my 20s, and my 30s, and now in my 40s. Some just stupid teenager crap, some a little deeper.

I know that I put up with a lot more than I should have in my life. This is my 4th marriage, but the 1st 3 were when I was really young. I didn’t get married this time until 2018. Before that it was 2001, but we separated in 2011.

I guess I would say that I regret not being stronger at using my voice in the younger years. I regret my kids seeing the failed marriages. I wish my big kids lived with me now. They would see how a happy marriage looks. It’s the difference in night and day. You truly do glow when you’re loved in the right way by the right person. He lights up my life. Cue the song…

I regret not living like Christ would want me to live. He knows I mess up ALL.THE.TIME! He loves me anyway. I’m not Holy, I am holey…a cracked pot with holes for the water and dirt and all that is supposed to stay inside, but that comes busting out. My sin busts through like the big ole Kool Aid man.

I have a favorite shirt and it has some holes in it, just like my favorite undies. Guess what? I LOVE them anyway. I’ve developed a sense of attachment and have no plans to throw them out. What does that remind you of?

For me, it’s how my ole holey, cracked pot, sin-busting- out -from -everywhere- self is loved by Christ. He sees it, he knows about it, and he loves me anyway.

Biggest regret: not doing more for the Lord because He has blessed me so much more than I deserve. Think about it.